Suami saya comel

Pada suatu hari....
(Dialog lebih kurang mcm nieee la..)


Me : abg.. Satu hari nanti cuba kalau anak kita bawa sorang lelaki balik rumah... Dan die nak kawen dgn lelaki tu... Tp laki tu muka cam pecah rumah jer... Abg nak bagi x?

En suami : (diam kejap..) kite akan suruh anak kite buat solat istiqarah..

Me : kalau die x nak buat?

En suami : anak kite... Kite didik agama die elok2... Mesti die dgr...

Me : okey.. Die buat... Tapi hati die tetap dengan pilihan die... Abg nak terima jugak ke????

En suami : terima jela kalau itu jawapan nye...

Me : tapi... Lelaki tu muke pecah rumah!!!...?$&@

En suami : pasti ade pengakhiran nye yang baik...Allah lebih tahu..

Me : .….........

Moral of the story: kalau kite tak yakin dengan pilihan kita.. Buatlah solat istiqarah.. InsyaAllah Allah akan bantu dan beri petunjuk-Nya...


"Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi pula kamu menyukai sesuatu padahal ia amat buruk bagimu. Allah mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui.."

(Surah al-Baqarah ayat 216)

Keperluan atau Keinginan?

Salam and I think it's not too late to wish happy eidul fitri.... Semoga amalan kita diterima-Nya..

Sambil makan macaroni and milo suam menunggu kepulangan suami tersayang..lagi 10 minit encik hasben akan pulang...so spending the whole day alone in the house...menjadi sangat membosankan and what i only did siang tadi surf and surf barang2 baby jer.. actually basic things utk baby da ada semua..cuma few items yang aku rase later pun bole beli lagi cth nye child car seat and stroller... penting ke? atau pun cuma sekadar keinginan.. bukan ape barang baby sekarang bukannye murah... even baju yg cenonet2 tu pun mak aii sehelai aku tgk 60 kot! lagi mahal dari baju aku sendiri..

So far aku google2 50-50 org yang merasakan kepentingan stroller.. then i asked my bestfriend... die ckp die x beli pun, die pinjam akak die punye nye and thankfully anak die x suke dok dlm stroller... so die pulang balik... aku nak test and drive kat sape? sbb ni pun cucu sulong and most items rasenye mmg aku kene beli sendiri...except that car seat tu MIL ada bagi tapi rasenye kene beli baru sebab belt die da rosak..xleh pakai da... cume nye my friend ckp.. 'kalo ko nak gi jalan kat tesco ari2 betta ko beli je..' otherwise kalo jenis dok uma bek x yah beli.. hehe..and aku ni mmg jenis kaki jalan...tp aku x terpikir nak mtk opinion my mom or my MIL pun.. cumenye hint2 my mom je ckp xde ke sape2 nak hadiahkan stroller.. tp my mom diam je,at least kalo x penting die mesti akan ckp no need la stroller.... x penting pun.

Cthnye mcm baby cot..mase mule2 dulu nak sgt2 beli baby cot, tp cousins, my mom, MIL semuaaaa ckp x payah beli..membazir je.sebab awal2 mmg baby akan tido dengan kita je....MIL lagi la, die ckp last2 cot tu jadi tempat simpan barang je..my cousin siap offer kalo nak jugak, amek je die punye, sjk beli mmg die x penah pakai... huh? seriously mmg x penting ke? so kalo x penting, xyah la amek jugak kan nnt semak rumah je...and plus rupanye baby cot ni dekat US da kene banned! banyak sgt kontroversi sbbt byk kes baby tersepit kat celah2 cot tu...nasib baik x beli awal2 dulu..kalo x tgk kat IKEA memang murah dan cute2 je...geram mmg rase nak beli je...dan yang paling membuatkan tak akan beli ialah hubby tak bagi sekeras2 nye..so what else to say kan... tp rezeki jugakla.. my mom ade bagi playpen, playpen macam ni rupe die...

Tapi yang aku dpt xde la canggeh mcm ni..bese2 je sbb second hand, ade org bg kt my mom, then die pun bagi kat aku..so die punye bassinet pun da xdela.. jadi kalo nak bg baby main dlm tu okeyla tp nak tidokan die agak payah la nak tunduk2 bagai... kitorang try cari bassinet utk playpen tapi xjmp...xtau nak beli kat mane..at least bole tido kan baby dlm tu..

Back to stroller and car seat...aku rase car seat mmg penting lagi2 nak kerja nanti...senang nak anta rumah pengasuh kan..lagi2 aku kan wanita independent mst la ke mane2 jarang husband ikut sbb die busy..so xkan nak drive sambil pgg baby yer dak? so car seat mmg masuk compulsory list la..cume maybe akan beli pas abes pantang nnt..sbb kalo baby lahir nnt pun, aku bkn leh g mane2 lagi kan...Lagipun bile tanye feedback orang majoriti cakap WAJIB ade car seat nie...

Cerita pasal stroller pulak, setiap kali pergi expo atau baby store wajib cuci mata tengok stroller tp x penah beli pun...end up beli benda lain je..dan mmg setiap kali usha stroller, kami akan usha either SCR9 atau SCR6...SCR9 sebab die leh baringkan jadi craddle plak..ala mcm basket utk usung baby tu...tp SCR6 best sbb die 3 wheeled! hubby ckp kalo bawa best, smooth jer...survey stroller ni da mcm survey kete je.. siap ade suspension bagai..tp bagi aku yg penting ringan dan senang nak lipat utk diusung kemana2.. erkkk mcm mmg plan nak beli je kan? 

SCR 6 - 3 wheel... leh masuk formula 1!! haha~

 

SCR9 yang leh convert jadi craddle.. nak dudukkan pun bole..

Tapi yang pasti both pun compatible dgn SCR7 - child car seat... sbb basket tu leh tanggalkan and ganti dengan car seat... both pun adjustable utk baring or dudukkan.. and plus both pun bole adjust utk either mengadap mama nye atau pun mengadap org lalu lalang...harga pun still dlm bajet..iaitu below 1k like around 400++ to 600 je... tgk skrg stroller mahal2 sampai 2 3 ribu pun ade..leh dpt motor lagi...so still dlm list KIV lagi stroller nie.. so far tak pasti sama ada ianye keperluan atau keinginan sbb...baby x lahir lagi...nanti bile baby da kuar, baru leh tanye baby nak ke tak...hehe....daaaaaa..! husband da blik and kawan die pun nak dtg pulak...till next time..~

Stories to tell

Assalamualaikum.. 

Tonight i feel like telling some stories.. actually lot of stories since i can't even remember when is it the last time i wrote... da banyak benda berlaku.. and most importantly only 2 months left for this little one to stay in my tummy... and yesss it's getting bigger and I'm getting scarier.. 

Firstly paling excited sekali.... my study has met it's endddd.. 3rd august keluar result and alhamdulillah i passed all subjects..duhh...break record kot...the worse result ever..tp ape pun syukur alhamdulillah sebab semua lulus pun kan...hubby pun ckp, da lulus semua tu bersyukur jela....die pun lega sgt2...penat kot! menanggung seorang preggy student yg banyak karenang!! haha..heeeehe..lagipun what u give u get back kan....mase sem 8 pun study main2...sebab da takde mood gile2 nak study kenangkan da nak abes belaja kan... memang study rompong2 je..ade yg siap skip topic lagi...Ya Allah punyelaaa pemalas time tu....and plus baru pregnant lagi laaa pemalas bertambah2...Hopefully i will get my posting after my baby comes out... tak best la da keje2 aleh2 keje cuti bersalin pulak kan..and plus x payah la nak deduct annual leaves kan kan..

Second one is alhamdulillah both my SIL and BIL selamat mendirikan rumah tangga masing2 dgn pasangan masing2.. actually july was a hectic month back then sebab time tula nak final exam, time tula busy dgn bisnes floria, time tula nak kenduri kawen and yeeesssss time tu la nak pindah rumah baru (yeay, we got our own house now and i got my own kitchen).. kenduri berjalan dgn lancar.. mase tu nasib baik it was after final exam has ended.. so boleh focus untuk tolong waktu kenduri (tho takdela banyak menda pun aku tolong kan) especially aku yg tolong watkan hantaran.. last minit jugak tu! nasib baik sempat siap... time tu perut tak besar sgt so okeyla tak susah nak move around... my BIL punye wife pun pregnant time kenduri tu...by that time diorang da about one month nikah dah...dorang nikah early june..so kira bunting pelamin la nie..and mungkin org paling happy probably my MIL sebab akan dpt 2 cucu serentak. 1 this year and the other one next year. but who knows kalo SIL punye rezeki pun dkt, 3 org cucu la sekali arong kan..hik3..

and pasal pindah rumah baru - it was the last day of floria, hubby decide nak masuk rumah malam tu jugak...so tgh2 malam kol 12 ke kol 1 time tu gakla aku mengemas uma mengemop lantai mencuci pape yg patut sebab hubby nak tido mlm tu gak...so penat gakla sbb i was all alone that time sbb hubby tak abes berniaga floria lagi time tu..by the time die sampai uma da siap kemas dan cuci da..tinggal tidooo je... dan start dari aritu macam2 la koleksi barang2 uma yg kami beli..seronok ade uma sendiri...mcm2 bole beli, meja makan, coffee table, langsir...actually langsir aku jahit sendiri...waaaaaaaa jahit sendiri? yela termenung kt uma sensorang x wat pe bek menjahit...actually org tua2 pantang kalo waktu mengandung ni menjahit..macam2 la sebab nye...kalo nak ikutkan pantang, camtu satu benda punla aku x leh buat yer dak...well ape2 nak jadi pun tu semua kuasa Allah..kadang2 dok diam2 kat uma pun kalau Allah nak, jadi jugak kan...

Next - hmmm.... BABY!!! yeay kalau cerita pasal baby memang sgt SERONOK.. daaa banyak da brg baby aku shopping at least dlm 2 expo baby aku borong barang baby kot!! first one kat midvalley bulan julai dlu... time tu memang borong gile2..siap pegi hanta barang kat kereta and then we round up for second trip lagi...almost 600 kot melayang mcm tu je!!! sorry mr husband... tak keje lagi so cannot support u...hehehehe what to do...anak sulong ni banyak la expenses kan... second one kitorang pegi expo kat klcc last week.. yang ni x bnyk beli brg, just topup2 pape yg tak cukup je...lagipun expo kat klcc ni x semenarik yg kat midvalley tu, choice pun sikit compare dgn midvalley..tapi memang BEST GILE shopping barang baby ok...ni pun ade brg lagi x beli sbb x de pilihan sgt kat expo tu so kene pegi kedai baby yg betol2 plus nak tunggu next payslip pulak..hehe...sekarang pun kalo online je x lain x bukan mengadap website yg jual barang baby online je.. cuci mata je pun, belinye tak beli2 pun...sbb kalo newborn nak beli brg sgt terhad sbb baby cpt besar..kang beli kang jap aje pakai nye...tapi gerammmm sgt tgk brg2 baby tau! sgt2 cute....

And yes i forgot to mention, we went for 3D/4D scan dkt sri kembangan last week!!! gile tak mama baby nie....esok nye nak appointment pun nak pegi gak wat 3D scan...yela skang ni semua buat 3D scan kan...mane tak terpikat nye dgn teknologi canggeh nie...bole tgk muka baby lagi.. so i booked online appointment 3D ni dkt poliklinik an-nisa dkt sri kembangan... yg scan bkn doktor tp sonographer.. ari tertentu je die ade kat klinik tu...nasib baik dapat sbb best time nak scan 3D is between 26 wks to 30 wks.. that time aku da almost 30 kot...cuak sgt sbb mule2 call vision college (tgk kebanyakkan mommies semua review gempak2 VC nie) tp bile call die cakap da penuh dan ade kosong pun end of august... mase tu maybe da 32 ke 33 weeks da..so da x best da nak scan..so aku da putus asa da...but then aku jmp la FB sonographer ni jezzlyn... and aku terus book!!! alhamdulillah ade lagi kosong...aku book hari selase, dpt appointment hari khamis..okeyla tu!

masa mule2 tu die scan2 cari position baby...mule2 kecewa gak sebab baby tido and die tutup muka die dgn tangan die...so sonographer tu ketuk2 skit perut aku nak pujuk baby suh aleh tangan..kejap je die aleh tgn, dptla tgk muka die skit..eeeeeee geram2..sgt chubby... tp die masam sgt muka die...marah kot org kaco die tido...kejap2 buat mulut muncung...ngeee...nak tgk ke.?

baby kumam2 mulut die...makan ape tah tu..

Baby jelir lidahhh..~ wekkk!

kaki die.. cute mehh...? 6cm long... about~

 And guesssss what?? it's a GIRLLLL.. mama ade geng la...mama geng dgn kakak la pasni...hik3... ^^

Okey that's all for tonight kot..baby da penat..baby nak titow..... hehe next post nak cite pasal checklist baby plak k! daaaaaaaaaaaa...~

Holiday

I'm writing now coz i'm kinda bored right now... baru siap masak spaghetti... and then kat luar hujan renyai2 dari pagi tadi non-stop...and plus my iphone breakdown so i cannot play any games....

It's almost 5 months! hehe...halfway there baby.. =D

Skang pun da dapat rasa baby gerak2.. maybe next appointment bley scan to see whether it's a boy or a girl... hehe so senang sikit nak buat preparation and start finding the names (padahal da start cari da...) oooo... i'm so excited.... but here it is.. the name must be short and easy to pronounce as hubby cakap, nnt tanak org panggil anak kita lain bunyi nye, maksud pun jadi lain so betta find one name that is easily pronounce... and the max should be only 2 words.. kalo ikut hubby die nak 1 word jer...

And for me the first word or the possibly the only one single word should start with 'A'

hehe so nnt dlm kelas nanti namelist, name dok atas sekali...

we've got few list now both for girl and boy... well at least kalo da tau gender we can just cut down the other list...pening sebenarnye nak pikirkan nama anak2 kan... so long as membawa makna yang baik2 and not so complicated hehee and not so common... like me! heheh (perasan jap)...

okey...back to work, japgi hubby nak balik makan... daaaaaaaaa.........~

20 weeks ^_^'

12 weeks!!

It's already 12 weeks! Finally... The end of the first trimester....

(copy paste dari babycentre)

"The most dramatic development this week: reflexes. Your baby's fingers will soon begin to open and close. Her mouth will make sucking movements. Toes will curl, and eye muscles will clench. In fact, if you prod your belly, your baby will squirm in response, although you won't be able to feel it.

Meanwhile, nerve cells are multiplying rapidly. Synapses, which are used to send messages around the body, are forming furiously in your baby's brain.

The intestines, which have grown so fast that they protrude into the umbilical cord, will start to move into the abdominal cavity, and the kidneys will begin excreting urine into your baby's bladder.

Your baby's face looks unquestionably human: her eyes have moved from the sides to the front of her head, and her ears are right where they should be. From crown to rump, your baby-to-be is just over 5cm long, about the size of a lime. She weighs 14g."

But the suffering won't end yet... Muntah and loya every night and morning.... Huuuuu tak tahan... Hopefully it will just end next month....

Hyperemesis gravidarum with Heartburn

Here i go again... (sambil makan biskut sayo)

15 Mac 2012, Khamis malam jumaat 7.00 mlm - it was a very hard night tho... biasenye kalau duduk rumah in-law maghrib mmg akan jemaah and after that ade tazkirah ikutla sape punye turn. huhu aku pernah sekali je and the topic was about aurat... maybe later i can share my notes.. 

back to the main topic - aku da amek wudhu siap2 sadly my husband was not around, die habis syif pukul 10. lately sejak preggy mmg jarang jemaah dgn family lagi2 sejak sakit pinggang makin teruk. so aku end up solat duduk sorang2 dalam bilik and luckily my MIL pun paham die pun x panggil. then after solat aku rasa dada da x sedap macam kene tekan2 picit2 je...bile bazilah dtg bilik ajak join tazkirah aku just ckp, 

"cakap kat mak, akak tak sihat..."

bile da lame2 baring, sane tak kene sini tak kene,sakit pun da makin menebal.... cepat2 kol hubby...and once i heard his voice terus air mata turun menjeje2... hehe manje gile! die pun tak tau nak buat ape, nak time off staff tak cukup.... dan aku..... terus menangis kesakitan.... seriously mcm sakit jantung pun ade...sangat sakit...hubby just pujuk.... 

"tahan la...nak jadi ibu ni kene tahan sakit...kalau bole balik awal... abg try balik awal..."

bile dengar mcm tu....haaa lagila kuat meraung nye.... last sekali hubby kol mak mentua suruh checkkan keadaan aku...dan kebetolan masa die jenguk ke bilik mmg tgh nangis2 lagi...huhu *malu* x penah nangis dpn die. then bile die tengok mcm da teruk je, die pun ajak gi klinik... g klinik dekat je dekat alam damai.... Klinik Alam Damai - Bersalin dan Surgeri (nama pun da macam sakit puan punye klinik kan)

Bile sampai2, punyela ramai patient die... ade 11 orang waiting kot!! aku pun da lemah semangat... tapi time tu macam da reda sikit.... aku pun x sure kenapekah.... then adela dalam sejam kot menunggu... dlm kol 9.30 camtu aleh2 my husband pun muncul...hehe melebar pulak senyuman.... mostly patient2 die adelah baby2 yang nak kene cucuk sbb siang2 parent keje...itula kelebihan klinik private, nak cucuk or nak check-up malam2 pun boley..

Dan tibe masenye name ku pun dipanggil... kelakar pun ade sampai due orang teman masuk.... my husband and mother-in-law... doktor pun pelik...hihi... then aku pun story la aku punye HPI - History of Present Illness gitu... dari 2 3 hari aku da x makan sangat, muntah pun sehari mau 5 6 kali jugak....makan je muntah, makan je muntah, memang x leh tolerate pun nak makan pape... plus current medication - obimin, FA and calcium...die cakap acid reflux, then aku pun baru terpikir, ha yela aku dok muntah konfem la acid naik ke atas lalu menginflammekan aku nye lining sooo tu rase sakit gile...itu la dipanggil heartburn... atau org melayu sebut... pedih ulu hati...

Lalu doktor pun story perkara yang aku x penah tau akan ini, (bile cite kat kawan2 sume pun terkejut sbb x tau pun selama ni) bahawasanya first trimester tak bole amek ape2 supplement pun lagi2 mcm obimin tu sbb ade byk zat besi dan bole mengundang alahan... aku pun "oooo...." jelaaa... camne tah nak jadi pharmacist, ubat bole makan ke x pun x tau...hihi

die suruh stop obimin just continue with FA je... and then mcm bese doktor akan tanye detail pasal cycle sume utk estimate pregnancy term and EDD. tibe2 die cakap....

"dah 9 minggu dah nie, da bole scan da nie...nak scan tak..?"

kalo ikut logik, klinik mmg suke nak scan sbb bole charge lebih kan, tapi seexcited doktor tu pun, hubby and MIL lagi excited terus diorang suh scan je...

inilah hasil scannye...

Actually x nampak sangat pun kan...about 2cm je... sangat kecik...tp on screen gamba agak lebih clear..boleh nampak jantung baby ^_^

Mak mentua siap tanye lagi doktor, ade brape heartbeat? ade 1 ke 2? haaaa... punye la berharap utk dpt cucu kembar ..hehe..... tp doktor ckp cuma nampak satu je heartbeat..so i wont put my hope too high... as long as my baby is healthy, i'm thankful enough... tp aku sgt2 gembira bile tgk hubby.... bile die tgk je gamba kat screen tak berkedip2 mata...nampak so excited... with his proud face...

bile nak balik tu, doktor nak prescribe antiemetic tp aku ckp x perlu just bagi antacid kot sbb kat rumah mmg xde stok antacid.. so die pun bagi mmt plus simethicone... aku pun dlm dok happy tu still sakit2 lagi dada.. x menyempat nk balik rumah, dalam kete gak aku telan mmt tu...aku pun pulang bersama dengan ibu mentua ku....

da sampai rumah x lame lepas tu my husband pun balik bersama bubur McD... ^_^ it was almost 11 pm kalo x silap aku.. bile da abes makan, siap2 nk masuk tido da....

TAPI! bile je tengah malam sakit aku da makin teruk...sangat sakit sampai menangis2.... kecian suamiku..mata pun da kuyu mengantuk sgt..mesti letih keje...kene pulak melayan isteri yang kuat nangis ni..die pun blur nak buat ape...last sekali die call my dad (hihi tgh2 malam pulak tu! sori ayah...) ayah pun suruh pegi hospital terus. pujuk punye pujuk (yerla aku da letih gile mmg x larat nak gi mane2) akhirnye aku pun ikutla jugak... pegila jugak a&e kat hukm tu

by the time kitorang sampai da almost 1 am da... aku kene primary triage dgn secondary.. so 2 kali aku mention aku pregnant... nurse tu bnyk soal pulak...aku da la letih, mengantuk, sakit... die pun bagi no suh tunggu....die kate kalo nak tunggu, tunggula banyak patient nie... patient yg pukul 8 tadi pun ade lagi...so.. aku nak jawab ape?? aku ckp aku tunggu jela... die siap ckp awal2 

"kalau tibe2 da rase x nak tunggu, pergi kaunter, kene cancelkan pendaftaran "

rase dalam hati nak sepak2 je.. ~ grrr...!! seb bek sebelom aku kuar bilik triage tu, die kate kejap2...ingt nak bagi ape, upenye die suh minum mmt...~ (caring jugakla die)

aku pun kuar...tgk waiting list ade lagi dlm 14 org... aku da x larat.... paling x larat bile satu patient amek mase setengah jam!!!! &@!#&*$#%!!!!

time tu mmg kesabaran da off limit... aku x tahan aku pujuk husband aku balik skrg jugak! so...pulangla kami dgn kecewa dan kesakitan mengenangkan sepital kerajaan... (name pun free)

on the way pun hubby tersengguk2 bawa kete...cian die..... da la penat balik keje...ish2...so sorry...~ 

bile da sampai rumah, x sempat masuk rumah lagi, abes semua bubur mcd aku muntahkan ke longkang dpn uma...tak tahan sanagt...masuk bilik je, aku cuba tido but still tak bole jugak..aku x tau nk buat mcm mane...aku pun telan la venloxin sebiji dgn harapan akan mengantuk...hubby pun google la... die pun cerita aku just dengar jela...

die cakap la sakit yg aku alami ni nama die 'heartburn' and roughly about 75% pregnant women akan mengalaminya...dan bla2...akhirnya aku pun tertido dalam tangisan mugkin kesan veloxin tadi....da x dgr da die ckp ape...sedar2 pagi esok aku bangun.....bdn rasa da ok...da xde sakit2 dada...dan alhamdulillah sampai sekarang xde muntah2 lagi...aku da stop obimin, calcium and protein dan aku makan dengan kuantiti yg sikit tapi kerap...so biskut la peneman setia kalo tibe2 rase lapar...sbb x boleh makan banyak sekarang..~

moral of the story - before amek supplement sila la consult any specialist first and for the record tomorrow morning nye my dad call asking for my health being... dan kebetolan baru pas minum ensure... ayah pun cakap... tak boleh minum ensure (protein drink) sbb dlm ensure ade mcm2 komponen so for the first 3 months tak bole amek ape2 supplement... dingdong! nape tak terpikir nak tanye ayah bole ke x amek obimin dulu? maybe terlalu excited kot...

i think that's all for now..dah maghrib pun.. time for mandi and solat...

First post in 2012...

when i'm writing that's really mean i've reach my upper limit of boredom.. because i'm not a fan of virtual writing.... only reading...

here we goes.. 2012 definitely will change my whole life with me currently struggling for my final sem... well, not actually struggling... with only 4 papers throughout the semester? that is called heaven..

"kalau 4 tahun boleh tahan, takkan la 4 bulan tak boleh...sikit je lagi tu..." Azfar Naif, 2012.

yess...finally... and this year is gonna be a blast. with 2 kenduri in the middle of the year, am sure life will be intresting...

and yess..alhamdulillah... insyaAllah we'll be having our little khalifah not later than october, i'm so excited...i've been waiting tooooo long for this.... and Thank U Allah for hearing our do'a.... 

Actually i was only 3 days late for my period then i'm toooo excited then i did the upt. it actually came out  +ve but only with a blur line... only 3 days!!for sure i have toooo active secretion for hCG (the blue strip) then after consulting with both my mom and my mother in-law , i did the upt again one week after and the line become darker..!! weehuuu and everybody was happy... erkkk is happy....especially my ayah of course.. ever since we've got married he keep asking for his generasi ke-3... then ayah, this is a gift from us!!!

And then my MIL keep talking on and on that this is gonna be a twin (praying silently...hihi...)she had been praying for it since she went for haji last year... she really want a twin grandchild i think...

and then my mom goes like... where are you going for antenatal, delivery bla..bla..u should go here and there, here again, there again.. and my lil fayyadh is just like, i'm going to be pak su soon....weehuu.. and all other siblings like "nnt ape baby nak panggil...mak lang..mak cik?"

and me of course, happy... seeing that, i can make all other people around me happy tooo... especially my too-kind lover, mr azfar naif.. ;)

it's only 2 months and i heard that the very first trimester is the most fragile period... this is the period where people got miscarriage if they're not being really careful... and now i'm worried about the finishing school... and dah tentu the program adalah modul wajib... i'd already risk my self going for beijing last february... and i don't want to risk anything again for the second time.. >.< what should i doooo.... =( hopefully i'll get past thisss... plus i hate any activity involving my weekend also..

Some more i want to share (i've got no idea whose gonna read my story ),  two of my adik ipar will be tying their knot in the middle of this year.. i'm glad i can be part of their historic moment.. as i can be consider to be playing a very little part in the merging of the two hearts. (poyo gile) hihi...but then it's really me who got themselves introduced. 50% me.... hihi ^_^' 50% is eina's... tapi only for my brother in law jela.... i think they are going to make a really cute couple with a very high Islamic value.. i really respect that... sebab in nowdays environment, people like to 'couple2' first before they decide to get married... same goes to me... but i never regret that, because i know i have found my right man.... and during that moment, throughout the 4 years, alhamdulillah Allah has protect us from any bisikan syaitan, and we still have the sparkles in our relationship.... kadang2 aku pun terpikir mcm mane la perasaan  bercinta lps kawen, mesti best.... but then i believe we are special sbb bercinta sebelum kawen, but then we still falling in love with each other for every second. even berpisah seminggu pun kadang2 boleh nangis kerinduan.... (gedik2!!!) 

I love watching my BIL with his soon-to-be-bride sebab berkenalan dalam masa yang singkat and the decision was made only after few weeks they got to know each other..itupun tidak bersua muka.... and i think it's will only be like 3/4 months? and they'll be tying down the knots in may/june insyaAllah... and this girl is really sweet.. they've been going out for a few times now and of course my MIL or SIL will tag along... i believe that is the best way to protect the relationship.... you know the saying "kalau dah berdua, mesti ada yang ketiga.." and i believe kalau lelaki tu betol2 gentleman, dia tak akan bawa mana2 perempuan keluar berdua sahaja... kerana kalau dia sayangkan hubungan itu, sudah pasti dia akan lindunginya dari memberi peluang kepada syaitan... (jadi ustazah la pulak kan...~)

tapi that is only my POV, selagi niat kerana Allah, insyaAllah kita akan dilindungi... 

that's it for now..